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so today i am hangin wit my couzin in idaho and i was having fun till i noticed that on myspace my x boi friend(that still loves me) status was luvin my girl. and i kinda got a lil sad cuz i really luv him. so i decided to tx him and ask him if he had a gf and he said yes. so i said ok and then he said ya and i was like well i will talk to u later then i guess, and he said why and i said um i dont know then i replied again and said that i didnt really feel like talking and he was like ok and i said sorry and he said itz ok and ya. but then later i tx and asked him if i could talk to him and he said "no? never" and that kinda threw me off track cuz i thought he... loved me. but it turns out that he doesnt, and that he luvs someone else and i have to be ok with that... even when i dont feel like it... he is my best friend, and possibly my true luv. so i have to make sacrafices. love is when you want the best for someone. wether it includes you or not.... so since i luv him, i am just going to have to accept the fact that he has moved on and i need to do the same. love is like a piano, first you must learn and play by the rules, but then you must break free from those rules and play from your heart. and i started playin from my heart to soon.. thats what lead me to my heart break